Fried Bee Hoon With Meat Balls

I finally plucked up enough courage to venture into the kitchen. It was no big feast but it has been many weeks since I cooked.

They say pregnant women have strange cravings, well this one had a bad craving for fried bee hoon for weeks...disatisfied with what she could find in the foodcourts/resturants/coffee shops, she finally resorted to cooking it herself.....Fried Bee Hoon with stewed pig trotters! And because she didn't think there's enough protein from the trotters, she decided to make some meat balls too...

Ate it with my mother-in-law's home made chilli.....yumz..I finally managed to satisfied this mad craving...

It's going to be a lonely journey

I think it's going to be a lonely journey. What is? The pregnancy.
I don't know why i feel so alone even though I am surrounded by family and my husband who is close by. Well...at least physically close by that is. Mentally, I am afraid we are miles apart.

The hormones is driving me nuts...I feel like I am out of control. There is like so much rage inside of me. I can't seem to control it. The physical discomfort from the pregnancy is also not helping much. The constant feeling of sickness, exhuastion is draining me. It doesn't help to have people constantly telling you this is normal and get over it. I hate it whenever someone says that, they might have gone through pregnancies and survived but helloooo...I am going through the pain now. Yes, it doesn't kill...but it's not exactly a great feeling. It doesn't feel good to have someone brushing it off as normal when u are trying to survive through a bout of sickness and trying to hold ur head up high at the same time.

I tried telling my husband how I feel but he was just too engrossed with his food and tv and told me to bear with it. It's only short term....he said.
I'm not saying he is not a supportive husband. Yes..he helps out with the house chores and I appreciate that but being there physically is not the same as being there for me when I need him...do you understand what I am trying to say? He doesn't. He thinks I am being difficult. But I need someone who can understand what I am going through and I need a husband who can sympathise with my feelings. Someone who can support me not only physically but also emotionally. I tried getting him to understand but he seems very engrossed with his new course. He only has so much time for so many things.

I think i am an emotion wreck. I hate feeling this way. I hate feeling alone. It doesn't help that most of my closest gfs cannot understand what I am going through..I have a sister who had 3 kids, a brother who has 2 daughters, a mother who had seen so many pregnancy but yet I feel very alone.

I am sick and tired of felling this way. i have another 28 weeks to go. It's seems like an eternity.